What I've Learned in Life

I've learned that.....

• It really takes time to heal a heart that’s been broken.
• It’s not easy to forgive the person you never thought would cause you pain.
• When you love, be open to the possibility that you might not end up together.
• Don’t expect too much.
• It is so easy to say that it’s okay if you’ll not end up together and that whatever happen you will always be there as a friend for that person, truth is, it’s very hard to let go.
• No matter how hard you protect yourself not to be hurt, it is impossible because when you love you are giving that person the right to hurt you.
• When you love, don’t give it to all. Leave something for yourself.
• Once trust has been broken, it’s so hard to trust again.
• Love yourself first before others could love you.
• Don’t fall in love with your friend because when you do, you’re taking risk of the friendship. And worse, it’s so hard to be friends again(@,@).
• Nothing lasts forever.
• It feels great to have friends who are always by your side.
• Nothing compares to the pain of losing the one who means most to me.
• It’s so hard to accept that things will never be the same again.
• It pains me thinking of my father. I wish he’s still here with us.
• When I’m hurt, I’m good at hiding the pain.
• I could still smile even if I’m hurting deep inside.
• I haven’t yet accepted the truth that he is really gone. I’m always missing you Papang and I’m trying to get you off from my mind so I’ll not feel the pain anymore and somehow it works but I just couldn’t help it, it pains me that you are gone forever.
• I love my family so much. I have so many dreams for them.
• God never leaves me and He is always at my side.
• I’m making my nights into days because of nonsense things.
• I could sleep for at most two hours.

No More Tears to Shed

When I heard about it
My heart wants to bleed
I looked for some place to hide
My heart’s really hurting deep inside
My last resort was to cry
But my tears have gone dry…

tsk..tsk...tsk...

Sometimes I asked God why He let me fall in love with the wrong one. Why did He let me fall for someone who would just hurt me? Why do we need to love if in the end it will just bring too much pain? If I could turn back the time, I wish I never crossed the path where I met him. He was really selfish. He only thinks of himself. If only I could turn back the time. If only I didn’t let him enter into my life, may be I wouldn’t be hurt this much. May be I could have saved myself. I could have saved my tears. I couldn’t see anymore the brighter side of it. I pity myself. Am I that worthless? Am I that useless? Why is it so easy for him to hurt me? It was so easy for him to tell me all those lies. I would sometimes ask if he came to a point in his life where he had a second thought of what might be the effect of what he was doing. He never thought of the pain he might cause me. I guess he never thinks. He never did.

Sometimes I asked myself, have I moved on? Have I forgiven him? I bet not yet, not now. May be in the future I’ll learn to forgive him. I hope so, I really hope so. Honestly, I wish our path would never cross again. I don’t want to see him again. I don’t want to text him. I made many attempts before not to text him but I’m always thinking of the friendship. I really wanted to save the friendship because that’s what I’m most afraid to lose if everything fails between us. I already lost him, will I allow that our friendship would also be lost? May be the answer is yes. It feels like I don’t want to be friends with him anymore. Before, I really wanted to hear his sorry. Would he be man enough to face me and tell me that he is so sorry? Well, if he’s not sorry I (wait… the song is Now and Forever…I treasured that song but not now anymore…dili na nuon ko ganahan ana na kanta because of him) can’t do nothing about it. If he is not sorry then I wouldn’t force him. Besides, I don’t want to see him anymore. Basta ako kay magpadayon sa life. Lord please take whatever pain left inside. Please take it all away. I pray that if you’re going to give me someone to love in the future, I hope he would love me more than I love him. And most of all, he would love You more than me.

Quote’s Collection:

* Some people are sweet at first, always has time for you at first, curious at first.

But why do some people change after you love them so much? Maybe all romantic moments only happen at first, and never last…. ‘=( sad naman ng life…

* In the end, three things matter- how much we loved, how gently we lived, and how we gracefully let go of things not meant for us… very true!

* I really hate endings… not because I’m left alone or I’m not loved anymore. I hate endings…because it makes me think of HOW and WHEN to start again.

another one...

I WANT HIM TO BE MY FIRST AND MY LAST…NOT UNTIL I HAD MY HEART BROKEN…

If things didn’t happened the way we plan it and the way we expect it, it hurts us. Nothing could compare to the pain it brings. We are always hoping and wishing for the best. Of course, who wants to be a failure? In our lives, we always try to be the best we could ever be. We always try to have all the best this world could offer. We always want to the best. And we want to be the first.

Who are the best? Who are always being remembered? I would say those who are firsts. First to walk on the moon, first to discover the Philippines, first to settle in Mindanao, first to reach the Mt. Everest and all the firsts world records in Guinness, etc. And perhaps, our first love… Our first is always the most memorable and the most unforgettable one.

But in love it’s quite the opposite, we want to be the last. Personally, I want to be the last person to be loved by my man. And I want him to be my first and be my last. I really wanted it to be that way. I want my love story to be that way. But not until I had my heart broken.

Meaningful songs in my life…

Tears in Heaven- this song always reminds me of my father. How I wish he would still know me when we see each other in heaven. I really miss him. I love you Papang. How I wish you’re still here with us. It still pains me that you are gone forever. I bet I will always be in pain because I will always miss you. You will always be in my heart. I wish I could stop my tears from falling while writing this one. I will never get use to the pain.

Would you know my name?

If I saw you in heaven…

Love is all that matters- first song I’ve memorized. It was in my elementary days. I could still remember myself singing this song while sitting outside our house.haha…

Love is all that matters

Faithful and forever

Promise- I want this to be my wedding song and if I can afford, I want Martin to sing it for me. Hehe…

And I promise you this day and forever

This promise of love…

No one else comes close- First time someone sang it for me.

No one else comes close to you

No one makes me feel the way you do

You’re so special girl to me…

First cut is the deepest--- Ouch!

I would have given you all of my life…

But there’s someone who tore it apart…

Will I ever- my recent favorite song…

Will I ever get to heaven with you?

Will I ever breathe the air that you do?

Mr. Curiosity- for my ears…hehe..

I’ll be over you- good for the heart who wants to move on…

Some people’s destiny passes by

There are no guarantees, there are no alibis

That’s how our love must be, don’t ask why…

Somewhere, somehow- full of promises… it feels like forever…

Somewhere far beyond today

I will find a way to find you…

Somewhere down the road--- I wish our paths would never cross one day… And if it would, I wish I’ve already forgiven you…

Broken Vow—Meteor Garden!

I’ll let you go…

I’ll let you fly…

Friend of Mine—song ni Lea…

October Birthdays!!!

Happy Birthday sa tanan magbirthday this October...

Rancy (Oct 02)
Ning, debut na nimo..hehe...ganap na lalaki njud ta.haha...Unta we can spend ur bday together pero malabo, ang layo mo kasi eh..Enjoy dra! God Bless you always...sunod nlng ta magcelebrate together..I love you Ning!

Xempre ang mag-debut jud tinuod kay si Tere (Oct 18)...naks! Ayaw sa og uli tere...hehe...More birthdays to come tere.. I love you Tere. Thank you for always being there...Thanx for alws listenin..sabta nlng ko tere ha... Naa lng pod ko alws to listen sa imoha. Most of the time jud ikaw sige paminaw..Mahilakan pjud nako..Salamat kaau!

Hmmp...who's next? (October 24)My daughter duckling!hehe..I love you Ferlyn!
Thank you for the laughter..hehe..Murag clown njud ka karon sa bhaus..Pag wla nami ni Mich ha kay continue to bring laughters sa bhaus..Hay mamiss jud nako na...Layo pa kaau ka maabtan..oi kaila nako sa imong crush...hehehe... Take cara alws..God BLess!

Lastly, akong dearest mother!(October 30)hehe.. Happy Birthday Mamang...I love you so much... I promise to take care of you and ate and kuyas...Thank you for alws being there...Thank you for everything...Oi i-greet pod ninyo akonh mama oi..hehe...

Ang wala nko namention kay sunod npod...hehe...

Happy Birthday guys!

at last!

After 20 years naau njud ang cpu...hehe...Congrats sa akoa! hay dghan kaau ko buhaton pa...Lord thank you kaau...Hapit na gud ko mawalaan og hope(drama lang)...bitaw, GOd is alws there for me...Thank you so much Lord...I love you my GOd!

I'm so blessed to have a family who is always there jud though we are not financially stable...Thank you Mang, Kuya BOn, Kuya Mac, Ate Ai, Ante and everyone...And kay Papang pod..wherever you are right now, dont worry about us here... I'll take care of everyone specially Mamang... I love you Papang!

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just droppin' by...overnite na pod..weeh!

my savior!

I've been down for the past days. Can't understand myself. Ive never been like this before. Now it seems like everything is not falling into their proper places. Everything seems not right. Well, Life is never without problems. But whatever struggle we are in right now, life doesn't end there. We have God who will always be there for us. Sometimes, He seems so distant but He never go far away from us. He is always there. All we need is to lift up everything to Him. Trust Him with all our hearts. Trust His perfect time! I love you Lord!

Let me share this to you:

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

"I have plans for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

MY TRUE LOVE

MY TRUE LOVE

December 14, 2007

12:32 AM

(ang kanta kay push of Matchbox 20)

How can someone like me feels this way?

The feeling makes me really happy….

Am I feeling the real thing?—It’s simply amazing!!!

It feels like love, It feels like forever

I’m afraid to be hurt but why not give it a chance?

You are the one I’d love to spend tomorrow

To share with you my laughters and cries

And to be with you till the end of time

Will I give up? Will I hold on?

Why am I holding on to something that is impossible?

Why am I holding when I know it will never be you and me?

Why am I holding on to someone who will never be mine?

My mind says give up but my heart wants to hold on

Please tell me what to do,

Till when will I be holding on?

When it’s clear to me what I really feel,

I told myself, I’ll take this fight

And win the battle for you and me

I’m just wonderin’, are you feeling the same thing?

Will you be there to fight with me?

Will you be there beside me?

I beg you darling please tell me honestly…

I’d love to wake up one day with you by my side

But how can it be when things are not just meant to be?

It hurts a lot, it breaks my heart

But I’ll still be here for you no matter what…

I’ll let go of you…

I’m so afraid to lose you

But I guess you don’t feel the way that I do

And I won’t wait for that day when I can’t pull myself back anymore

Because I’m so madly in love with you.

I’d rather lose you than to have you because you have to…

I’m praying for you always…

Halong always and GOD BLESS!!!

And for the last time, let me say this:

I do love you…

ADIEU

ADIEU

To every song and every poem
To every care you’ve shown
To every laugh and every tear
To every worry and every fear
To every hug and every sweet kiss
Goodbye to all of these.

To every promise you’ve made
To every dream that can’t come true
To every pain I’ve felt
To every tear I’ve cried
Now, it’s time to say goodbye.

I forgot that nothing lasts forever
There is no such thing as forever
Forever is a lie!
But if there’s a place I wish to keep you—
It would be in the PAST where YOU were once TRUE!

-airsoon-